This song was an exercise in expressing honest emotion through the inner monologue of an unreliable narrator, who really are the best narrators of all. It was a fun challenge for me as a songwriter & hope you'll forgive the naughty language at the beginning. Two words, specifically.
lyrics
Lyrics:
Don't really wanna be your friend,
just started dating again.
And I'm sorry if that stings or seems a little too direct,
but that's the best that you're gonna get.
See, I used to be in love a couple of weeks ago but then I got bored.
Now I'm looking for that special someone who lets me fuck them once in awhile.
Maybe that someone is you,
if that's what you wanna do.
Don't really wanna share a laugh or two,
just one—the dumber the joke the better.
Cause dumb is a lot more fun,
than trying to get down to the bottom of why we still hang out together.
See lately your hugs have started getting just a little too long,
and your kisses don't have as much tongue,
and you really shouldn't take yourself so seriously—
when it's three in the morning and I send you a pic of my dick,
what's the matter?
You've seen it before,
by the way, happy birthday—you're 34.
Don't really wanna be your friend.
Don’t really wanna be your friend.
I’m sorry it’s late.
I’ve been drinking again.
The past few days have been rough,
my ex finally came by to pick up the last of her stuff.
“You deserve to be happy.”
That was the last thing she said to me.
But honestly, I’ll be just fine.
Now the apartment’s all mine,
I’m gonna have myself a really good time.
A really good time.
And you don’t have to, if you don’t want to.
I promise not to be weird,
and we don’t have to meet here.
It’s just, my room feels small with all this space,
and every empty wall and mirror seems to laugh in my face.
They say, “A man like you needs a maid, to clean up all his mistakes,
and give a weary laugh at every joke that cuts too deep.”
And when she asks you, “What are you thinking of?”
You pray she’ll never realize you’re terrified of falling in love.
I don’t know who I am,
but I know I’m strange,
but I promise I can change.
And I want you to like me,
but not too much.
And I need you to just leave me alone,
but keep me in your thoughts.
And I'm sorry I think everything's a joke—it's just the way I cope.
Cause nothing laughs louder than the silence of a one-room apartment.
I hold on to every little thing she did,
cause now I’m all alone the little things are big.
And you deserve to be happy.
You deserve to be happy.
You deserve to be happy.
You deserve to be happy.
credits
from Mom's Kitchen Demos,
released November 1, 2016
Music & Lyrics by Sean David Christensen
Programmed, performed & produced by Maggie Dave in Sean's mom's kitchen
Maggie Dave is the music project of visual artists Sean David Christensen & Mark Christopher. The duo explores vivid pop
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